How many rings, Dante?

I'm taking a short break in between studies and I've got nothing to do so here's a couple of randomers:

1. It's a fantastic day outside! The weather was gnarly yesterday but the sun's out and it's all quiet... funnily enough I don't have the urge to be outside, content to sit in my reading chair and study (mostly cause everyone's hermitising now).

2. I have a reading chair now. And a lamp. XD

3. I need to organise my books. When I say I need to, I don't really but I want to. They're situated all over the house and I want to gather them in one central bookshelf in my room... though I'm lacking a bookshelf and place to put one...

4. Yesterday I got fed up of studying and went into another "I-don't-want-to-do-this-buttkiss-anymore"... also I was very worried that I am in no way going to be able to pass my exams. Today I'm peachy though XD

5. I did really badly in my mock clinical exam last saturday. Really badly. You know those times in life where you feel like a complete and utter brainless twat? One of those.

6. I have developed an addiction to watching John Green vlog. Originally I mocked ache for being a nerdfighter. Now I find I think I'm one myself. Awesome.

7. I refuse to join twitter. Just because.

8. Firefox has this new skins thing (I've already forgotten what it's actually called) that I find very amusing. My browser menu now has 4 random animals (including a unicorn) playing an arcade game in the background.

9. I think I've successfully uploaded all the music I have that I will ever conceivably listen to onto my ipod... it's about 2G worth... out of 120G... Also I've developed the sickest addiction to podcasts. Ever.

10. Lookie at this pretty picture I drew for Claire

It's for the cover of this year's edition of Murmur (annual medical student magazine). I admit it's a little half-arsed, which is something I never like doing, but I'd end up spending all day on photoshop to get something I'm happy with. Still, there it be.

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I will grant you that they're a little bit needy

First off, glad to see how much attention the vlog (i'll concede that yes it is technically a vlog) has generated... most of the comments confirming my suspicions that we're still the same 17-year-old geeky little idiots on the inside... XD

So yesterday my parents got back from Israel, the ten days of me and sim being scarily similar to a married couple are over, and life goes back to normal. Me moms got me an ipod as an early birthday present. 120G classic, it's epicly vast, and i agree with mike who thinks i'll never actually fill it, which is basically why i wanted a big one.

This weekend we've got the FBGMFI (actually learnt what it is!!) conference weekend at the Topaz in Bugibba. I'm only going up tonight and tomorrow for the worship sessions though cause i really need to try and study. I really, really do. I've promised myself I won't rant on about my studies like I used to in older blogs, so I'll keep it to a minimum... I've just lost the ability to study, it feels like my brain's stuck in second gear trying to sludge through toffee-r-us. I study for half an hour (staring for 10 min of that) then have to take a half hour break cause i'm already tiring... and after i'm done i can't actually pin-point anything i've learned... meh...

Mock clinical exam tomorrow... hurrrrrr... Though I've learned not to get caught up in all the tension, the sun will still rise, friends will still be there, God is still God and life will go on no matter what happens. I'm not the books I don't study. I'm not the exams I fail. I'm not the time wasted on facebook XD

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Fly, you fools

Was going through my files and stumbled upon this:



That was June 2005, almost four years ago. I find it scary how nerdy we both looked and sound. Just give to an idea of how things change, we thought we'd give an update:



April 2009, things have changed. Well, we hope so.

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I really, really have to start studying properly...

...really.

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Stream

I woke up this morning, not knowing why, or when, or how. I opened my eyes and I felt and I knew. The world is quiet. Quiet and still. Dim shades of light and shadows of all the hues of grey made up my world. This is the world I see everyday. Intricate patterns and shapes on the ceiling, the picture of a beach at twilight on the wall. I've looked at them again and again, they're always the same, but the answers I try to find in them seem to change. I seem to change. Days, months, years, they were all so well defined once, so limitless. Now as they merge themselves in memory the past seems to leak into the present and I can't tell one from the other even as I live it. And yet now none of them exist. Now is all there is. I should wake, I should get up and walk into the world, into routines and times and things to do and places to be. I should get up. But I don't. I lay here, in this dim glow, entertained by my thoughts of what is and what could be. I'm only humouring myself I know, I can't predict what will happen, why what has happened did, what you or I thought or felt. Only a memory and a perception. Or rather the memory of a perception. How incredibly far from the truth that can be. Still it's nice to wonder. To dream. To hope. I close my eyes.

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Generation Worship

The energy and expectation of what God is doing, the hope and the love. This is what I'm seeing. This is what I'm working for.




Last night. I want to thank everyone who was involved in setting up, everyone involved in the filming, everyone who came and gave their all, and God, the glory is Yours alone. It was so, so hectic. Since they were filming we needed to go on and on at the end, just when I think we should stop Pauline tells me to play another song. It was so tiring. Half way through things like tempo, keys, chords and lyrics ceased to exist. All there was was a semi-distorted sound blasting out of my monitor into my brain and if it sounded like it was together, then it was ok. I felt all over the place. Half the time I felt like I was probably singing off key. The rest of the time I couldn't hear my guitar. Most of the time I wasn't really conscious of what the other people where playing. It was chaos, but a beautiful kind of chaos. In that chaos I gave my all out to God. It probably wasn't the best anyone has seen or heard, I'm pretty sure it wasn't, but it was all we had, all I had, and I gave it all. And in that moment I knew that God was there.

Now I wait for the next moment, I live in love, in expectation, of what God is doing, of what work of His I can bless, of the next moment I can again give my all.




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Ordinary Life

Take me and invade me
Make me someone new
Wake me from the dead
And break me with the truth.

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Spring!

It's here! :D

I'm nerding out at periodicals in the library. I have no idea what periodicals are.

*Surgeon squints as his hands move further into the patient's abdomen*

*Surgeon pauses as a singular yet determined gush of blood starts to squirt out from somewhere inside the deep, dark cavity*

*Surgeon mumbles 'I really should have gone to that lecture...'*

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While eating copius amounts of pasta

It's Tuesday afternoon and the sun has reared it's face for the first time in 3 days I think. I am happy :D

Re a lot of the comments on my last blog: I AM NOT SAD! I AM A HAPPY PERSON! I read all the comments with everyone telling me to cheer up and that it'll be alright and I was like "why? what's wrong with me?" *shrug* I did a bit of ranting i'll admit but really I'm fine guys, no need to sound so concerned. Ajma :)

I mentioned the Spring affecting ze creative processes... got another song I'm working on, which I shall now share with you... it's called Reign...

I've got doubts runnin' through my mind
About the life I'm livin', like where is it all going
Started out with the best of intentions
But somehow my directions got lost in my translation
Along the way, Lord won't you please show me
The path that you've made for me, a better-ending story
Cause I want to be what you want for me
And what you want for me is so beyond me
So won't you

Reign, and let Your Kingdom come

I've got doubts and about a hundred questions
Philosophical reflections, human interpretations
Of this life and our day to day livin
The love I should be givin' I can't find it within'
Myself, and nobody's got the answers, it's like the blind leading
The blind leading the blind, won't you help me find my way
Back to you, Father true and merciful
I'm asking please won't you

Reign, and let Your Kingdom come

If you would come and take your place
In this heart of mine
In this heart of mine

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We only have One Life

Take a deep breath in. Hold it. And exhale. This is going to be a long post... and rather disjointed...

This morning has not been good. Last night I was in a bit of a mood, those you know me well enough noticed I think. I think it was the product of a band session which was a bit of a let down. I was really, really looking forward to it (especially after a weekend being relatively trapped in a hotel talking about hospital experiences and how I feel about the course and bla bla). I did kind of enjoy it, it was everything I expected it to be, and at the same time not. That hall really does not help, mike's never happy with his sound (cause of the reverb), I can never really hear anything well (cause of the reverb) and mig keeps forgetting what he has to play (because of the drugs :P). Add to that the absence of a bass player (Ian i know you're busy, we miss you), a pianist and a decent singer. eh. Anyways this left me feeling a bit, well disappointed. Wasn't in a bad mood or anything, just kind of detached all night. Kinda thing. So yes, this morning:
> I woke up from having that general feeling last night
> I had a friggin weird dream. I don't know what it involved exactly except that a lot of well you guys who read this were in it, and it involved a large white house, and I don't mean obamaism.
> Lost an hour of sleep.
> Wanted to wake up at 8 to get an early start on my assignments. Either my alarm didn't ring or i switched it off in my sleep. I woke up at 10 dazed and confused.
> The sky looks like someone vomited on it.
> No milk... which means no cereal.... which means no breakfast....
> I get an email informing me i have a mock exam in 2 weeks, and actual exams in 4.

Meh. Bear in mind I haven't shaved for about 2 weeks now so I look like darwin's evolution drawings, about 3 stages back, but then what's new.

Exams, exams, exams. They're getting really close now, and I have so, so, so, so, so much i have to cover. The fact that I've got things like youthful worship, the conference and the mime, worship team, giving my slum survivor witness on friday, possibly animating millenium chapel BJ's mass thingy, and who knows what else going on does not help. At all. Eh, the stress begins... well relative stress, I seem to not be able to get too stressed about exams these days, life is too short to get stressed. "Life is too short to have bad tone". Mike told me that yesterday, it's a quote from the Droff (Hillsong's premier guitarist). I'm getting into my guitarry nature again. I've spent a good couple of years heavily focused on acoustics and songwriting, and while that's not going to change, the electric is calling me back again. I spent a good amount of time geeking out about fenders and pedals and all things techie with Mike last night, was great (sorry Achie :P).

Anyway the stress crunch is here. I have to stay in all day to finish my family medicine and behavioural science assignments so maybe I can start studying from tomorrow. Behavioural seminar thing (the one i finished yesterday) actually wasn't all that bad this year. We had to watch Patch Adams (again) and ER (the george clooney days) and then reflect on issues mentioned and blar blar. Hurr hurr. I enjoyed it cause our tutor for the weekend was ok, and cause I got to relate to some people in my group who are having doubts about the course too. ^^ I got a cold from it all though *sniff*

I've noticed I've developed a coping mechanism for having lots of work to do which involves listening to copious amounts of a certain artist. Last year it was Jack Johnson *visualise beaches and flip flops*. This year it's looking like it's going to be JJ Heller (Thanks Achie :D). I've been listening to her on loop for the last few days and it's just worked it's way into my system, so much so that I've found myself randomly muttering lyrics to myself now and then. I love how songs can do that, they can become part of you and even though after a while you'll get tired of them and you'll move on to something else, there will always be that imprint of particular song or artist on you.

Speaking of songs, I've been writing quite a few of them. I think there's something about Spring, the weather, the hormones, the promise of new things and the hope of greater heights... Last year my creativity went into overdrive, I was writing songs upon songs, most of which I've forgotten, the good ones I've retained. And 2 of them made it into the recording we did which incidentally was this time last year too. I miss the studio. To be frank it was an immensely humbling experience. Only in the clarity of the studio can you see so vivdly how far you still have to go. That said, we learned so much from the experience (which is good cause i don't really like the final product of the songs we recorded). I've had a growing longing for the past couple of years to get into production, I've always loved it, seeing a song form and become real from basic odds and ends, become something beautiful and personal and living. I think my attraction to film stems from that too. I haven't had much time to write this year, both in terms of songs and poems (which I had promised myself I'd take up again but the few I had got down to doing were on my stolen macbook :'( ). Here's just a little fragment of something I'm working on, I hope I get down to writing it:

All I can do is wait for grace
All I can do is seek your face
In quiet be found
In stillness I wait

You laid down your life, You took my place
And all that I've known
Echoes this thing
This beautiful thing

But we are waiting for a greater glory to fall

The lenten talks have been great as regards inspiration. A big big congrats to everyone involved, it was brilliant! Personally it gave me a bit more of a drive, of connecting with a God who plans for things so great that our heads would just explode if we knew about them now. At one point during the adoration on Thursday I just picked up my phone and started typing out lyrics. It really was great :)

I probably had other things to talk about but I can't remember at this point in time. Love is.

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The BiBlog Experiment

Disclaimer: The following blog is in conjunction with Mr Xmun Callus, who's blog may be found here. Please refer to it in order to make a complete reading of that found here-under. You are about to get confused. Less than three.

As I type this I'm sitting in the communications lab which I have found is a refuge of all things mac on campus. It is rather glorious. §

Indeed. I've also decided that being Fr Mike's personal secretary is rather nice. AND we had sugar cubes! §

I agreed. Insomma, as you can imagine we're both skiving lectures, surprise surprise. Technically we're here to work on assignments. We'll get to that in a bit. §

Illallu, it was brilliant. The dance was fantastic, even though there was the sound mishap. It made me actually want to be involved in a dance like that.... And the worship was brilliant, kudos to Sam and the band ;) §

Yup, pretty much. I'm really looking forward to the rest of them :) Sim I really liked that shot you took of Sam's back by the way, very cool. §

(I've been checking Sim's spelling for those of you who know him well enough... I think that's all of you really... it should be decent this time :P) Something I realised from yesterday is just how long it's been since I sat with the congregation. I've been part of worship team for about 4 years now and not playing during worship is quite a strange sensation, it's like I don't know what to do with myself. Though then again it's nice to be able to just get lost in the worship instead of having to deal with technical problems and trying to think of what song should be played next and where the Spirit is leading us. §

Still though, I wouldn't trade worshipping through the music, it's become part of who I am. Simon has lectures on journalism and next year on photography.... I hate him. I hate you too Malcom, you smug b*****d. 2 years..... 2 more years.... if I pass my exams this year insomma... exams are really getting close and my brain has lost the ability to worry about these things... flip flops :) §

Yar, and you're pretty damn good at it ;) One of my biggest problems is that I like too many things - music, art and design, and now I'm really getting into film (though not in the same sense as Sim, more in terms of scripting, direction and storyboarding). You see my problem? I think it's because I like so many things that I never just concentrate on one and become very good at just that... which leaves me being diverse yet mediocre... §

VESPAS biznitch!! §

It's actually so much fun not knowing where you're headed in life. Who wants a schedule? After all this mayhem, I'm pretty sure I'm going to look back on it all and laugh. With a good few stories to tell. Life is for living after all. §

Ditto dude. Though you really should cut down, two sugars is more than enough. I'm not going to take care of you when you're 50 and diabetic. §

Right...... As Jack sends us drifting into the afternoon I think we should leave you here, confused and muttering to yourself. Oh, and one last thing... §

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The Matrix has You

Bonjour, le petit grenouille sur le tete de la vache qui tomber est frappe sur ton pantalon. Bien sur.

Pretty sure I got some of the grammar wrong there but it's been a while since o level french. Recap on the weekend shall we?

Friday: Led worship at community. I think it's the third time I've had to lead there and I'm still trying to find my footing, I'm not as comfortable there as at YouthfulWorship yet... then went off to the launch of Y4J band's new album :) By the time we got there they'd already finished, but socialising was fun and being us we ended up rolling wires with the team hehe it was actually fun to do cause we weren't obliged to. Been listening to the CD over the weekend, good work guys! I especially like the voices, some real good talent there. There's always more though, so keep at it! XD

Saturday: After the weekly saturday lunch with my dad went off to have a jam session with mig, mike and ian. Was really great to meet up, working on a couple of new songs too which i always love doing. We really need to find a new place to meet though, the reverb in that hall is ridiculous... after that went over to the st julians church and joined in some of the intercession for the lenten talks. The Spirit in that place was amazing. I really miss being able to praise and worship with people in my generation, going round to y4j again has been rekindling a passion that fell asleep for a while I think. Bring on the talks!
After that we went, to my shame, to macdonalds (I'm sorry Kris, I know). I even ate. I have to admit, it didn't taste like dead gazelle this time. Spent the whole evening there which was actually really fun.

Nothing interesting to share today,a thousand apologies. Paula made a great vid of the picnic last thursday, I don't know if it's anywhere on the net though.

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Guess who...

Yeah, I'm back. Again.

Been reading everyone's blogs and basically I started missing writing again, so yeah I'm going to give the blog a try for like the fourth time I think. Again, I promise nothing, in the sense that what will be written here is largely a stream of conscious from my random days to the confusing clockwork of my brain. Oo err. And Kris you can read this so I don't have to write an email every time too :P

I'm going to start with the new look. I hope you like it. I don't mind it so much, an improvement on the other one at least. I spent about an hour cruising that meffing site trying to find one that I liked and the artistic perfectionist in me came out, the bastard. Clicking the "next" button became a compulsion that I just couldn't say no to. Ranting already, woo.

To be honest I don't have much to say. Yesterday was brilliant (as Simon's already mentioned most of). I haven't had that much fun in a field in aaaages, especially the frisbie game... even though we killed half the foliage... it'll grow back though XD Had uni today, I was really really tired though. Took me ages to sleep and when I did I had some really weird dream about what I can't remember except for the fact that it was really weird... Was supposed to have lectures till 3 but the last 2 didn't turn up and we ended up waiting for an hour for nothing. Lovely. Got community tonight and then off to meet whoever at whatever is left of the cd launch...

Anyways, since i spent all afternoon looking for the backdrop I'll stop here. Follow n that if you like.

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Yes, I am this bored

So, what does your average guy do when he doesn't feel like studying renal pathology like he should and the slow internet connection deprives him of his most beloved House? Ta Daa! I am now going to proceed to ramble on about various disjointed things... don't look down...

New Year's Resolution. Every year most people make one. Every year almost all of those people have broken it by January 2nd, and that's the few that make it that far. Last year my resolution was to try be more outgoing, especially with people I already know. You know how sometimes you'll pass by an acquaintance in the road and you're not sure whether to say hi or just keep walking and you end up in this whole inward awkward situation? No? Just me then... anyway this resolution usually ended up with me shouting people's names from across the road or uni quad among other places. Went overboard a little i think, but hey it was part of the fun. Point being, i did stick to it to a certain extent and this year I have a new one. Put simply and rather artistically, it's to replace fear with love. I got thinking over the last few months about how many things we do in life are motivated by fear... of embarassment, of consequences and who knows what else. Well I'm trying to put an end to that as much as i can. I know i can't completely eradicate it, but i want to do things cause i'm passionate about it or cause i want to help people, not because i'll feel guilty if i don't.... this is going to turn into a long blog, i can feel it.

Recently I've been thinking about all the things i want to do in life and have started to think that there may come a point when i actually won't be able to do them. I mean, finish university, start working, eventually (God willing) get married, settle down and then *BAM* you're meffed. You spent your youth hanging out with your friends and advancing your career and now you're an adult. You have responsibilities. Deal with it. Scary. Well, I want to try and take one year out of that whole shindig and do all my bucketlist of things. So what's on my bucket list?

1. Go (back) to New Zealand and Australia and live there for a few months (note: the rest on the list will take place there or in the following places). 
2. Get a job in some silly surf shack. 
3. Go to Japan and America while I'm at it.
4. Learn to surf. Do it a lot.
5. Buy a vespa.
6. Go skydiving and base jumping. Yes, with Simon.
7. Go snowboarding.
8. Go horse-riding across the NZ farmland.
9. Learn to do the Hacka.
10. Visit an old Japanese temple, sit under a cherry tree, buy underwear from a vending machine (you gotta love Japan).
11. Go to Hillsong.
12. Buy a didjeridoo.

I originally only had up to no. 7 but made up the others for good measure :)

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Alive, alive, alive forevermore

Hey kids, yeah, wow huh? 

I don't really intend to keep this up... and seeing as when I do intend to I don't... so not much hope is there? Anyway, I'm humoring Simon with this meme thing... here goes...

Matt needs to not play every little blog meme that comes along... (I'm not even kidding)

Matt looks like the Hulk pictures from skateboarding photos (shrug)

Matt says 'where the hell is Matt' (...)

Matt wants to sleep with Chelsia (I swear I don't know anyone named Chelsia but there's a youtube vid if you're interested)

Matt does silly stuff (hurrah!)

Matt hates cold weather (not so much)

Matt asks Lita to marry him (....what is it with the women?...)

Matt likes pulp in his orange juice (if it's tropicana I do actually..)

Matt eats John's Balls Jr.'s sportswriter profile (erm...)

Matt wears shorts during Suzuki Sx4

Matt was arrested for excessive speeding

Matt loves to ride the pole!

Ok.... sooo......

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Worlds Apart

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Long days and Green Men

I have had a long long day. Went in to Valletta at 8 this morning to get my passport done, then Uni to help finish off anatomy project since it's due today. Thanks Chris and Claire for letting me leave early :) Submitted my physio essay yesterday for reviewing, now I hope I won't have to change or add anything... Want to do pharma assignment on Sunday so next week I can start studying hard... I'm so busy at the moment it's not even funny, apologies to everyone if I'm nervous at times... ajma...

Off to Mass in Zebbug tonight, then prob Dubliner's after. I know it's Duluri but I really need a drink tonight, just one of those days.

Wanted to share this, Edward Norton as the Hulk! Maybe this time it'll be good...

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Not of this world

Hey everyone. Since my last blog I've almost finished my physio project, hopefully will get it done today :) Anyways, I want to talk about yesterday...

Last night I wasn't in the mood for staying at home working on the project, so I decided to go to the mass meeting at the fosos with Simon, Lara, Angie and Sarah. It was quite fun, though I think the others thought I wasn't really enjoying it... actually I was taking it in for most of the time, I hadn't been to a mass meeting since I was little. Met a few people there like Brian, Doreen and Daniel, as well as Bianca, Andrea and co. Also saw Max, Danila and Emma, hadn't seen them in yeeeaaaarrsss! Insomma, waited aaages for Gonzi to come out, and once he did, waited ages for him to give it a rest. PN good, Sant bad, we know, we know. Jumped around like idiots a lot, espeically in the rain at the party after... which turned into more of a rave...

Now, I don't want to put down mass meetings or anything, but I reflected on something this morning. Thing is last night I felt weird being there, cause I've gotten so used to cheering and shouting and jumping for one thing - God. It was really strange to be there and seeing so many people going crazy for a guy in a suit... Don't get me wrong, I like Gonzi just as much as the next nationalist, and I know the party's done/doing a lot of good for the country. But still, cheering, jumping, shouting and all that still felt kind of.. empty. I remarked about it to Simon and he just said it's a bit of fun for it's own sake. I know that, and I'm not saying it's wrong. I just found myself wishing I could see people acting this way for God, becuase HE is who is worth our praise! It's so strange how people can get fanatical about political parties, even turning it into idolatry, and then be so indifferent to God. It shows the Devil's got his hands around thing Earth, and it's so sad...

I felt really out of place at one point, and I do kinda now, looking back on it. And you know what? I thank God for that. If you feel out of place on this Earth then that shows that you are searching for a home that is not of this Earth, and that is precisely how I feel, praise God! It may sound strange, but I hope all of you feel that way too, or come to, cause if you have met Jesus, if you've given your life to Him, you are not of this Earth.



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Colour me black and yellow

Waaaaaaah I've been busy lately, or more accurately, am in a general state of busy-ness that should last for the next 3 months or so. Reasons for this aaaaaare:

1. Projects. I hate projects. I hate research even more. My anatomy project is due next week and my physio project is due by the end of the month. I am attempting to get both finished by friday this week. Then next week hopefully I'll start and finish my pharmacology project which is also due by the end of the month, which by the way, is about some kind of laxative. I hate projects. When I actually do finish these I have to start studying seriously for my finals which begin last week of May. Oh joy.

2. The boys and I are finally getting down to working on our own material. I'm very very very happy about this, and I'm liking what's coming out a lot, praise God. A lot more developments are on the horizon but I won't discuss those as yet seeing as everything is still in its early stages and nothing is definite as yet, the point being we've had to step up our schedule considerably and that means more time rehearsing and writing. More updates later on, but let's say God is very faithful. VERY faithful :D

3. Got a few other odds and ends that are gonna keep me occupied, like filming for 4given, weekend retreats, going abroad with Mike to Prague in April for the RELaY conference, and possibly other things that I can't recall at this point in time. Oh yeah, Resident Evil 5 comes out at the end of the month and Metal Gear Solid 4 on June 12th... I need to make time or sleep less...

So yeah, busy. I kind of really want to know my exam dates (I only know 3 out of 8 so far) cause my uncle's going up to some festival in England (or maybe Scotland, I don't remember) for a weekend in June and he's gonna watch Delirious? and David Crowder Band live in concert, so naturally I want to go. My mom told me if I was interested she's pay for me to go up, so naturally I really want to go. Thing is my finals are in June so basically I'm kind of screwed over... ah well...

Election week this week, my first time voting. I'm not exactly excited or particularly interested, though for the first time I found myself learning certain things about politics and the way things are going. Jen's dad (the legend himself) and the whole scenario with Sant that's going on at the moment is particularly amusing. I just really hope we come up, and I'm taking a positive attitude about it. Plus I really wanna go car-cading on Sunday XD

Last note: I finished Uncharted: Drake's fortune a couple of weeks ago and COD4 this afternoon. Both very very good games, thanks Mike :)

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Ready Now

Heyo, got a busy weekend coming up - Behavioural sciences weekend from this afternoon till Saturday afternoon, dvd night thing at community on Sat evening, going to Qrendi at 8 in the morning on Sunday to animate the mass, and got a lovely dvd/meal at Dan's place Sunday night. Tis lovely indeed!

Life at the moment feels pretty weird I gotta say. As far as everyday life goes, I think I've gotten used to being single again now and I'm pretty free, enjoying the little everyday things and even uni isn't getting me down anymore.... though I know I still have loads of work to do but I can fret about that later. Spiritually I feel like I'm going through a renewal, coming out of that stale feeling I experienced. It's that feeling that propelled me to start listening to 'normal' music for example, which was nice for the time, but now I feel I'm being called back... I'm going deeper and I want to go deeper. It's a great feeling, and rather exciting too. I think it has a lot to do with all the stuff that's happening collectively in the group (you know who you are ;P). In short, it feels strange cause at the moment my life has a lot of things on the horizon, a lot of change and renewal... I don't know if you get what I mean but lets just say spring this year is really going to mean new life for me :D Meh, I've got a whole weekend of this intrapersonal stuff and i'm already babbling about my feelings...

Yesterday I discovered the 'Desperation Band'. I love them, I really do, that perfect passionate feeling of praise and worship, it really gets me lost in the moment...





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