Ready Now

Heyo, got a busy weekend coming up - Behavioural sciences weekend from this afternoon till Saturday afternoon, dvd night thing at community on Sat evening, going to Qrendi at 8 in the morning on Sunday to animate the mass, and got a lovely dvd/meal at Dan's place Sunday night. Tis lovely indeed!

Life at the moment feels pretty weird I gotta say. As far as everyday life goes, I think I've gotten used to being single again now and I'm pretty free, enjoying the little everyday things and even uni isn't getting me down anymore.... though I know I still have loads of work to do but I can fret about that later. Spiritually I feel like I'm going through a renewal, coming out of that stale feeling I experienced. It's that feeling that propelled me to start listening to 'normal' music for example, which was nice for the time, but now I feel I'm being called back... I'm going deeper and I want to go deeper. It's a great feeling, and rather exciting too. I think it has a lot to do with all the stuff that's happening collectively in the group (you know who you are ;P). In short, it feels strange cause at the moment my life has a lot of things on the horizon, a lot of change and renewal... I don't know if you get what I mean but lets just say spring this year is really going to mean new life for me :D Meh, I've got a whole weekend of this intrapersonal stuff and i'm already babbling about my feelings...

Yesterday I discovered the 'Desperation Band'. I love them, I really do, that perfect passionate feeling of praise and worship, it really gets me lost in the moment...





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It's THAT day of the year

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Missing the Feeling of...

....arrr... roll on the summer...

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When nature calls

Ajma ajma. Just spent a couple o hours writing a bit of my physio essay. It's taking longer than I'd like to get done, but it's interesting enough and i'm actually learning from it. That actually extends to the whole of my course at the moment, not getting as much work done as i'd like (where do the hours go?) but i'm really enjoying it. Blamf.

After much deliberation due to the weather (don't give me that 'you're a pussy' stuff sim, the weather was awful on friday, and setting up in the dark would have taken aaaages), we did go camping after all. Met in Rabat bright an early at 8 on Sat morning and headed just outside Buskett for the day, night and following morning. Was lots of fun, spent most of our time cooking, eating, drinking beer (repeated these steps several times), climbing stuff and shooting stuff with mike's airgun. Big thanks to Jonni who's camping know-how proved invaluable and to Miggy for all the excellent food :D Cooking and then eating pasta outside in the rain on Sat night was something i found particularly fun hehe. I'll def be up for it again :)

After a good wash and change of clothes went to watch National Treasure Sunday evening, the film was... well what you'd expect it to be, and the company was brilliant, even if Jen and Chris did start to sabotage my car when we stopped for petrol ;P

Damn it's cold all of a sudden, been one of the few genuinely winter-ish days today. Looking forward to having a good weekend at Dubliner's at the moment, woo!

Edit: Simon's posted a video he made of the camping trip. It's pretty funny, though I still don't really know why i'm "The Posh"... Anyways thought i'd tell you about it, maybe he'll stop SPAMMING MY BLOG that way... XD

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Jump on it

Why won't Blogger ever remember my username and password?! It's little annoying things like this that are responsible for upsetting people's days.... and killing penguins... not sure how but fairly certain it's true....

Community weekend was a blast, was a great experience and loads of fun. Though can't say i expected any less. I want photos guys!! :D

I've had a really looooong day. Woke up early, watched Al Murray on youtube in a lecture hall, wandered around Mater Dei looking for another lecture hall (which was HUGE, HUGE!!), went to another lecture all the way back at Uni, went to Mass, went to library, went to gym, hurr. I'm rather thoroughly knackered now, so of course i need to post something like this:




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Art rant

Mornin'. Blogging so close to a previous entry isn't my usual thing, but I want to post something that I really like, though I think only Simon will really appreciate :P

Ian from three panel soul (and the late machall) recently did a pic for genericon. He's posted a video of him doing all the post-inking work on it. It's about 20 min long so unless you're really into this thing i think you'll lose interest fast. The fact that there's no commentary is a shame, would have learnt a lot more from it, but damn does it take a lot of work to make these things. This vid showed me, at least, how much artistic knowledge it takes, both in colour and light.

Though I think I've sussed out Ian's method to his style:
1. Keep designs simple and expressive
2. Have a good knowledge of colour (you'll need it for base colouring)
3. Go friggin nuts with the shading
4. Make final touches that I can't even conceive

Anyways, back to braincells for the day, got me last exam tomorrow morning, have no idea how it's going to go... ...community weekend starts tomorrow though :D

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Buttmonkeys I'm bored

Had an 'off' day today, I'm going to rant about it, because that's what you do when you have reached the end of an 'off' day.

Ok first of all, went to Mark's birthday meal last night at Hard Rock, was good fun. What was particularly amusing was watching a bunch of foreign guys dance at an empty koyote after. By their dancing it looked like they'd been snorting engine grease all day... And Mark, I don't want to imagine the hangover you had this morning ;P

Anyway, long story short, I got in at around 2 30 last night. At 7 45 this morning the bell rang... electricity meter guy.... of course I had to go open for him. After that I did the logical thing and went back to bed for 2 hours. When I got up at 10, the maid had arrived and the whole second floor looked like a warzone. I hate it when that happens. Do you ever wake up with that feeling that everything is severely messed up, especially since you can't take a piss in your own damn bathroom? Yeah, I had that today...

Went to gym with Mike, came home, had lunch. Then I started reading neuroscience... and well that is basically it. Meh. Been sitting here all day and the lack of anything interesting to do is knawing at my brain. Ok, time to stop being emo now.

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DotCom

I'd like to kick off by paying my respects to Heath Ledger, he really was a brilliant actor and it's a shame to have to lose him so early in his career. I know it's his performance that'll make his last film so spectacular. May he rest in peace.

It's a beautiful day outside, really feel like enjoying it. Had a great night last night, thanks to everyone who was there, was brilliant :D Also was really nice to go to the y4j mass, it's been a while since i went and you guys are doing a really good job. Keep growing and going deeper ;)

Main reason for today's blog is:

www.maranathamalta.com

Click on it, bookmark it, visit it every single day. After so long the community website is finally up and running, and to be honest I'm very impressed with it, I never thought it'd be something of such high quality. Woo!

Been listening to a lot of snow patrol lately, in particular "Run" and "Chocolate". I really love their sound, some beautiful melodies.

Anyways, 2 'exams' next week then it's off to the community weekend. Really looking forward to it, eh guys? ;P

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Edit: Ok so the link isn't working, whatever, just copy-paste, you know the drill. Hurr...

Bars and guitars

I want to talk about 2 things today:

Subject A
I've been actually going out for the past couple of weekends, which, as most of you know, is not normal for me (because everyone knows that paceville is nothing but evil and trickery. I'm sorry Dez, it is ;P). Now, I don't know if this sudden urge to go out and meet people is a by-product of being single again, though it probably is, but I enjoyed myself. To be honest, i still hate paceville, but i have discovered somewhere I really love, Dubliner's. I went out there last Friday to have some drinks with the guys after community... nuff said about that.... and I went there on Saturday and found out my second cousin works there. This is funny, because i never knew of his existence before then. This friday I'm going to meet chris and some others there after the Healing Service. In short, I like this place, it is fun :D

Subject B
I've started studying for my exams last week and things aren't going too badly. I have the exam next Tuesday and while I don't exactly think i'm going to be impressing anyone, I'm not really bothered. Thing is, i've been getting a rather big creative streak recently. I swear, I can't put my guitar down. This i spose is a good thing... though it's coming at some expense of my study time as while reading i'll get up and go write something... and then play it for a while... and then look up a song on youtube... and repeat basically. I don't really know what I want to say with this... it's just... there. *shrugs*

Last note, I really want to watch this film.

Last note #2: Muffin!!


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Everyone's doing it

Hey, short blog. Studies been going well, I skived pathology to go study in the library today, woo! Rebel nerdism is me!!

I think only former y4j-goers will understand what i'm on about, but if we ever play this song at community, everyone has to sing it like this:


David Crowder band... makes my heartbox fuzz....

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Crunch time

Tonight is the last night of Christmas holidays... woo.... Now, in approximately 5 months I have to sit for my pre-med finals, and considering during the past 3 months i've done pretty close to 'jack all', this is not going to be a very 'laid back' period of time. Yeah... I don't know how this is going to reflect on the blogs, could go back to a random one once in a while, or they might just continue as they have, we'll see.

Though, from now until summer, I have resolved to do the following:
1. Study, a lot, and pass my finals...
2. Go to the gym, at least twice a week.
3. Make time, both with the guys and alone, to develop our music.

Whether or not i actual keep these up is, well... *shrugs*

Oh, by the way, big props to Rob for the concert on Thursday (though i doubt he'll ever read this imma nsomma). It was fantastic, really was. Congrats to Dez and Lu for the dancing, and to the y4j guys for helping out, was a really good night. Made me decide to go ahead and buy some in-ear monitors, they really should come in handy. Oh, and one day we will get to go to a studio and record an album, so help us God. I've always dreamed of it.

Last, but not least, Dru.... you're old now!! Ha!!!! Happy 20th Birthday dude ;P

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"In your dreams"

I've been feeling really sociable lately, ever since Christmas. I don't consider my usual self as anti-social, but lately i've been wanting to go out more and going on msn and stuff when i'm at home.... maybe it's cause i've got more time on my hands...i really should study....

Went to Valletta with Mike, Van, Lu and Sar today. We wanted to do some shopping since the sales are on but well, it was packed. And everything came in 2 sizes, large or XXXXXXXXXXXXXL... so i came home with one shirt. Ah well, it's a nice shirt XD

In other news, come drool with me...
Gibson Vegas high roller... you might not like the styling but if you want the tone in songs like "Best of you", you need one of these babies... and a baby it is...

Kudos to Kai for linking me up to tales of mere exitence, friggin great stuff:


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Roll on the 8

I went to watch The Golden Compass yesterday... Now, I am not going to make any relevance to religious issues, or even to the books for that matter, but to give my opinion on it as a film, well.... it was pretty bad. For one thing, the story isn't interesting, you don't really want to know what happens next. This is basically because it looks like they tried to cram in a lot of story into 2 hours, so everything moves really fast. You have new charatcers coming in every 15 minutes and you never get any insight into any of them at all. Except for one that is, the girl, and you know what? She's a brat. I mean it, watch it and tell one thing about her that's likeable, cause all she did was bug my ass. The one thing i liked about the story was the idea of the demons (however he spells it), that was interesting, but nowhere near enough to save the film. My first film critique, woo!

After the film I went out to eat with Claire, Osama, Carol, Frenchie, Sarah and Daniel. Was my first time eating Indian, and I really liked it. Big thanks to Osama and Carol for organizing it, even though i know you didn't get the turnout that you wanted. Oh and props to Claire for her parking skillz ;P

I've recently joined facebook.... which goes to say i've been pillaged by a bunch of insane applications.... d'oh!

Happy New Year's to everyone!! Here's my last sentiment from 2007:





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Is that the time?

Ever had one of those days where it just feels like everything is messed up? Yeah.... I'm a little sick at the moment, which isn't that bad, except for when i go to bed - my sinuses, nose and mouth become clogged with a river of mucus which leaves me unable to breathe, and more importantly, unable to sleep.... for two and a half hours... hurr.... now i'm woken up this morning by my mom, the weather looks like it died and they're still going on with construction next door.... hurr....

Ah yeah, Christmas right... well i did enjoy myself this year, presents weren't too shabby, spent the whole day at my uncle's farmhouse in Dingli and then went out with the others in the evening. Not a bad day overall :)

Ok at this point in time the blog is going to go into a long rant about my life, if you can't be bothered to read about one guy moaning about how indecisive he is, skip down to the last paragraph, do ya kennit?

Went over to Simon's yesterday to watch the pixar shorts dvd and ratatouille (i think i spelt that right...). Had a good time, sim you always manage to make me not work in the best of ways :P During this visit i got all blah about what i want to do with my life (yes, again). My previous resolution still stands but i saw some insight into what exactly is attracting me away from medicine - imagination. Thing is, medicine is great, but there's not exactly a lot of room for self expression (nor do i think there really should be, the images i get in my head when i try to think about it are just plain wrong), and this is the one thing that i've always had and i've always been rather good at. The things i have loved all my life - art, books, films, games, they all have one thing in common, and thats a story, a plot, or at least a way to imagine and explore something... to make something thats just in your head real.

I used to be able to incorporate that a little into science cause i was able to picture all the information and structures they used to give us (yeah i know it sounds like i'm entering the geek zone, but it's true and it used to work)... but with medicine i'm coming more and more to realise that it's not about creating, but usually more about analysing... and those who know me would probably say i suck at that... i don't really know, this is just what i think, but it seems to clarify this feeling i've always had... A lot of people have tried to help me out by suggesting that i merge the two - medicine and art - but i really have no inclination to do so, it's just that medicine does not interest me in that context.

The reason i chose medicine is cause it enabled me to give something, to help people with what i do. When i was younger all i was concerned about was not having a mundane and useless job. I just assumed that i would like medicine cause i liked biology and i have no problems with blood or internal organs (well, except eating them.... people do that....). And now, well i wouldn't say i hate it, but i don't exactly have a passion for it either. I know that we don't taste anything about what real medicine is until next year, which is the main reason why i'm still where i am, but still the idea gets at me. This isn't something i can slug through for a couple of years, this is potentially the rest of my life.

With art/writing/whatever it's kind of the other way around. It's something that i love doing, and something that i think i'd really be good at, but i don't really know exactly what it is i want to do (though i think i'd get a good idea if i took the plunge and went for it). More importantly i don't know what i'd be able to give to others with it. I don't know if i need this factor in an occupation or not, but i'd like to think i'd be giving something to people by what i do, and i don't really know what that would be in this case.... hurrr.... if you are reading this, congradulations, you are a dedicated reader, you earn a star.

Bah, more reflections to come in future, in the meantime i really should do some work... getting really bad now..... if i don't update again, which is likely, HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! (though on the actual night it'll probably sound like HAAAEEEYYYY NUUU NAAAAAARRRRSSHHHH from most of you :P).

One last note, got bored last week and decided to use my graphics tablet a bit, nothing special, just a straight sketch. Used just pencil and the 'undo' function XD

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Tis the season

Hey, not much has been going on recently so i haven't bothered updating...

Well except for the fact that i gots me a PS3 for christmas... and assassin's creed... it really is just as lovely as you would expect :P

Going out tonight for once in... i can't be bothered to remember. Looking forward to it, i'm in the mood for a few drinks and some good company hehe. I'm posting two songs down here that mike's drummed into my head, really really good stuff, inspires me to getting down to work, if you catch my drift...



Have a very merry Christmas :)

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I eats all the flowers

Yeah, long time no blog, i know. Story of my life :P

Well one major thing happened since my last blog, which is that my long time girlfriend and I broke up. Not gonna talk about it, just wanted to put it out there... yeah... What I will mention is how weird it feels to be single again after all this time. The only real effect it's had so far is a binge on avatar (which i have now finished, dammit. When is episode 12 coming out??!) and cravings for a ps3. In short, I am 12 years old again... But seriously, it takes some getting used to. Though it showed me that i have very good friends, love you guys :)

Been very busy lately, what with the healing service and all, went really really well though, praise God, so it was worth it. I've got what basically looks like a free week this week, and i'm using it to catch up on work. Yeah, things aren't being very interesting for me at the moment...

Just one thing i wanted to mention, Anabelle got me "United: All of the Above", i still need to pick it up, but it sounds like a fantastic album (me thinks). Atop this here blog is the link to the album fansite, check it out and launch the ecard. Besides the songs you can see some videos about the album, the tour and the I Heart Revolution. It really captures the feeling of a revival that i've personally been longing for, both within myself and as a group. I'm not sure if you can get what I'm saying, it's a bit fuzzy in my head too, but let's say i'm going deeper into finding my own identity. I'll leave it at that :)

Oh, and of course, there's this...



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I kill you!!

Hey guys, thanks for all the comments on the last blog. I've pretty much settled down now. After much talk and thinking i'm not going to make any rash decisions. I definately want to at least get to 3rd year and get some clinical experience. Anyway, i've been having ups and downs since this time last year and so far i'm still here. Whatever happens, it'll be alright. Thanks guys for your support though! :)

Weekend was pretty good, spent most of saturday hanging out with my dad. Saturday evening went to have a drink at Henry J Bean's with Dez, Sim, Angie and Sarah. Even though we were a few i really enjoyed myself, thanks guys for the fun :D. Sunday evening went to Dez's house to watch the outreach dvd. Congrats Sim, very good, even if i do laugh at my own jokes (LOSER!!).

I've become addicted to Avatar. Now when i first heard of this thing i thought it was stupid (it is, after all, a nick cartoon). But now that i've gotten into it, i feel like a kid again. It's great.

One last note, for those of you that haven't seen this yet:



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Ah choices...

I read a few of my older blogs today, i can't believe that almost a year has passed since i set up this page... granted i spent half that time completely neglecting it, but you get the point. I really think i should start writing things of substance again...

Well, had a pretty good day at uni, i was in a good mood and lectures were ok. Had a rather bad existential crisis (as chris calls it) yesterday. During one of my lectures i was seriously comtemplating dropping out of medicine and doing graphic art instead. It really unnerved me, i came to think that maybe i'm staying in this course cause it's secure, kind of now once i'm in it, it's easy to just follow it through. Thing is i don't really know why or if i want to become a doctor. It's not something i've always wanted and my major reasons for going in for it were that i was good at my subjects and i wanted to help people. Thing is this job is a vocation, which means long hours and a lot of sacrifice, and if you don't like what you're doing then you definately wont last long. Yes there is the money, but that only comes in at a much later date if you manage to get a good speciality, and being able to, say, spend more time with my family (God willing) or advancing in music/worship is more important to me than loads of dough.

Art is something i've always loved. When i was young i was a good artist (for a 4 year old at least) and i loved stories. I'd spend ages watching and re-watching my collection of classic disney stories and things. I dunno, i identify with the arts, so a career in something art-related and self expressive sounds ideal. In any case, i mentioned what was going through my mind to Dan and he and Colin took me to the canteen to have a chat about careers and stuff. I really want to thank you guys, though i know you probably don't read this, but anyway. In any case i've kind of settled for now, i dont want to make any rash decisions, plus what i'm studying now does not in any way reflect the medical profession, this is just the compulsory rubbish. I'll wait at least until next year when i get some clinical experience to take my decision further. In the meantime i'm considering doing art A level next year, even if i don't go into graphics, having a qualification in something i love would be nice, and it might come in handy later on.

Wow, this is longer than i expected hehe. I'm procrastinating on studying if you haven't noticed, man i find head and neck complicated....

Got some other stuff on my mind, but i'll talk about that later on in the week *air of mystery*.

Damn i want a ps3....

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I Dared

Been a while since my past blog, but i was mega busy last week, literally had one thing to do after another all week, most of this in preparation for the youth weekend:


It was a brilliant success, I really feel the group went much much deeper, and we all had a fantastic time while we were at it. I want to especially thank Dez and Sim for their help in setting up the backdrop, some of it was my idea but it would definately not have happened if it weren't for you two. Thanks for putting up with me :)

Because of all this mayhem (well partly bacause of it) i am quite severely behind in my studies, so, community permitting, i now need to go on a serious study binge. I took the day off and stayed at home today, figuring getting some rest and starting on some studying was better than going to a couple of lectures i'm not gonna take anything from anyway... This being said we have the Senglea healing service coming up in 2 weeks.... which means more work... meh, if God will bring you to it, He'll bring you through it.

ps. Assassin's creed comes out today ZOMG!?!

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Silver linings

Been really busy lately, youth weekend coming up soon and it's taking up quite a lot of my time, between band rehearsals and getting organised for the backdrop (btw thanks dezzy for all your help and patience! Hopefully everything will work out well). That said, i'm really looking forward to it, i've got high hopes and higher expectations. We'll just have to wait and see...

Got loads of work piling up, looks like my christmas isn't going to be much fun at all, on top of that i've still got the 2 projects to get done... lovely. On the bright side, looks like the government has decided to raise our pay and offer us a postgrad course. This means i might not need to go abroad after all. Things are finally looking up :)

Got my cousin's halloween get-together tonight... more things on my agenda...

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