Roll on the 8

I went to watch The Golden Compass yesterday... Now, I am not going to make any relevance to religious issues, or even to the books for that matter, but to give my opinion on it as a film, well.... it was pretty bad. For one thing, the story isn't interesting, you don't really want to know what happens next. This is basically because it looks like they tried to cram in a lot of story into 2 hours, so everything moves really fast. You have new charatcers coming in every 15 minutes and you never get any insight into any of them at all. Except for one that is, the girl, and you know what? She's a brat. I mean it, watch it and tell one thing about her that's likeable, cause all she did was bug my ass. The one thing i liked about the story was the idea of the demons (however he spells it), that was interesting, but nowhere near enough to save the film. My first film critique, woo!

After the film I went out to eat with Claire, Osama, Carol, Frenchie, Sarah and Daniel. Was my first time eating Indian, and I really liked it. Big thanks to Osama and Carol for organizing it, even though i know you didn't get the turnout that you wanted. Oh and props to Claire for her parking skillz ;P

I've recently joined facebook.... which goes to say i've been pillaged by a bunch of insane applications.... d'oh!

Happy New Year's to everyone!! Here's my last sentiment from 2007:





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Is that the time?

Ever had one of those days where it just feels like everything is messed up? Yeah.... I'm a little sick at the moment, which isn't that bad, except for when i go to bed - my sinuses, nose and mouth become clogged with a river of mucus which leaves me unable to breathe, and more importantly, unable to sleep.... for two and a half hours... hurr.... now i'm woken up this morning by my mom, the weather looks like it died and they're still going on with construction next door.... hurr....

Ah yeah, Christmas right... well i did enjoy myself this year, presents weren't too shabby, spent the whole day at my uncle's farmhouse in Dingli and then went out with the others in the evening. Not a bad day overall :)

Ok at this point in time the blog is going to go into a long rant about my life, if you can't be bothered to read about one guy moaning about how indecisive he is, skip down to the last paragraph, do ya kennit?

Went over to Simon's yesterday to watch the pixar shorts dvd and ratatouille (i think i spelt that right...). Had a good time, sim you always manage to make me not work in the best of ways :P During this visit i got all blah about what i want to do with my life (yes, again). My previous resolution still stands but i saw some insight into what exactly is attracting me away from medicine - imagination. Thing is, medicine is great, but there's not exactly a lot of room for self expression (nor do i think there really should be, the images i get in my head when i try to think about it are just plain wrong), and this is the one thing that i've always had and i've always been rather good at. The things i have loved all my life - art, books, films, games, they all have one thing in common, and thats a story, a plot, or at least a way to imagine and explore something... to make something thats just in your head real.

I used to be able to incorporate that a little into science cause i was able to picture all the information and structures they used to give us (yeah i know it sounds like i'm entering the geek zone, but it's true and it used to work)... but with medicine i'm coming more and more to realise that it's not about creating, but usually more about analysing... and those who know me would probably say i suck at that... i don't really know, this is just what i think, but it seems to clarify this feeling i've always had... A lot of people have tried to help me out by suggesting that i merge the two - medicine and art - but i really have no inclination to do so, it's just that medicine does not interest me in that context.

The reason i chose medicine is cause it enabled me to give something, to help people with what i do. When i was younger all i was concerned about was not having a mundane and useless job. I just assumed that i would like medicine cause i liked biology and i have no problems with blood or internal organs (well, except eating them.... people do that....). And now, well i wouldn't say i hate it, but i don't exactly have a passion for it either. I know that we don't taste anything about what real medicine is until next year, which is the main reason why i'm still where i am, but still the idea gets at me. This isn't something i can slug through for a couple of years, this is potentially the rest of my life.

With art/writing/whatever it's kind of the other way around. It's something that i love doing, and something that i think i'd really be good at, but i don't really know exactly what it is i want to do (though i think i'd get a good idea if i took the plunge and went for it). More importantly i don't know what i'd be able to give to others with it. I don't know if i need this factor in an occupation or not, but i'd like to think i'd be giving something to people by what i do, and i don't really know what that would be in this case.... hurrr.... if you are reading this, congradulations, you are a dedicated reader, you earn a star.

Bah, more reflections to come in future, in the meantime i really should do some work... getting really bad now..... if i don't update again, which is likely, HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! (though on the actual night it'll probably sound like HAAAEEEYYYY NUUU NAAAAAARRRRSSHHHH from most of you :P).

One last note, got bored last week and decided to use my graphics tablet a bit, nothing special, just a straight sketch. Used just pencil and the 'undo' function XD

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Tis the season

Hey, not much has been going on recently so i haven't bothered updating...

Well except for the fact that i gots me a PS3 for christmas... and assassin's creed... it really is just as lovely as you would expect :P

Going out tonight for once in... i can't be bothered to remember. Looking forward to it, i'm in the mood for a few drinks and some good company hehe. I'm posting two songs down here that mike's drummed into my head, really really good stuff, inspires me to getting down to work, if you catch my drift...



Have a very merry Christmas :)

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I eats all the flowers

Yeah, long time no blog, i know. Story of my life :P

Well one major thing happened since my last blog, which is that my long time girlfriend and I broke up. Not gonna talk about it, just wanted to put it out there... yeah... What I will mention is how weird it feels to be single again after all this time. The only real effect it's had so far is a binge on avatar (which i have now finished, dammit. When is episode 12 coming out??!) and cravings for a ps3. In short, I am 12 years old again... But seriously, it takes some getting used to. Though it showed me that i have very good friends, love you guys :)

Been very busy lately, what with the healing service and all, went really really well though, praise God, so it was worth it. I've got what basically looks like a free week this week, and i'm using it to catch up on work. Yeah, things aren't being very interesting for me at the moment...

Just one thing i wanted to mention, Anabelle got me "United: All of the Above", i still need to pick it up, but it sounds like a fantastic album (me thinks). Atop this here blog is the link to the album fansite, check it out and launch the ecard. Besides the songs you can see some videos about the album, the tour and the I Heart Revolution. It really captures the feeling of a revival that i've personally been longing for, both within myself and as a group. I'm not sure if you can get what I'm saying, it's a bit fuzzy in my head too, but let's say i'm going deeper into finding my own identity. I'll leave it at that :)

Oh, and of course, there's this...



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I kill you!!

Hey guys, thanks for all the comments on the last blog. I've pretty much settled down now. After much talk and thinking i'm not going to make any rash decisions. I definately want to at least get to 3rd year and get some clinical experience. Anyway, i've been having ups and downs since this time last year and so far i'm still here. Whatever happens, it'll be alright. Thanks guys for your support though! :)

Weekend was pretty good, spent most of saturday hanging out with my dad. Saturday evening went to have a drink at Henry J Bean's with Dez, Sim, Angie and Sarah. Even though we were a few i really enjoyed myself, thanks guys for the fun :D. Sunday evening went to Dez's house to watch the outreach dvd. Congrats Sim, very good, even if i do laugh at my own jokes (LOSER!!).

I've become addicted to Avatar. Now when i first heard of this thing i thought it was stupid (it is, after all, a nick cartoon). But now that i've gotten into it, i feel like a kid again. It's great.

One last note, for those of you that haven't seen this yet:



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Ah choices...

I read a few of my older blogs today, i can't believe that almost a year has passed since i set up this page... granted i spent half that time completely neglecting it, but you get the point. I really think i should start writing things of substance again...

Well, had a pretty good day at uni, i was in a good mood and lectures were ok. Had a rather bad existential crisis (as chris calls it) yesterday. During one of my lectures i was seriously comtemplating dropping out of medicine and doing graphic art instead. It really unnerved me, i came to think that maybe i'm staying in this course cause it's secure, kind of now once i'm in it, it's easy to just follow it through. Thing is i don't really know why or if i want to become a doctor. It's not something i've always wanted and my major reasons for going in for it were that i was good at my subjects and i wanted to help people. Thing is this job is a vocation, which means long hours and a lot of sacrifice, and if you don't like what you're doing then you definately wont last long. Yes there is the money, but that only comes in at a much later date if you manage to get a good speciality, and being able to, say, spend more time with my family (God willing) or advancing in music/worship is more important to me than loads of dough.

Art is something i've always loved. When i was young i was a good artist (for a 4 year old at least) and i loved stories. I'd spend ages watching and re-watching my collection of classic disney stories and things. I dunno, i identify with the arts, so a career in something art-related and self expressive sounds ideal. In any case, i mentioned what was going through my mind to Dan and he and Colin took me to the canteen to have a chat about careers and stuff. I really want to thank you guys, though i know you probably don't read this, but anyway. In any case i've kind of settled for now, i dont want to make any rash decisions, plus what i'm studying now does not in any way reflect the medical profession, this is just the compulsory rubbish. I'll wait at least until next year when i get some clinical experience to take my decision further. In the meantime i'm considering doing art A level next year, even if i don't go into graphics, having a qualification in something i love would be nice, and it might come in handy later on.

Wow, this is longer than i expected hehe. I'm procrastinating on studying if you haven't noticed, man i find head and neck complicated....

Got some other stuff on my mind, but i'll talk about that later on in the week *air of mystery*.

Damn i want a ps3....

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I Dared

Been a while since my past blog, but i was mega busy last week, literally had one thing to do after another all week, most of this in preparation for the youth weekend:


It was a brilliant success, I really feel the group went much much deeper, and we all had a fantastic time while we were at it. I want to especially thank Dez and Sim for their help in setting up the backdrop, some of it was my idea but it would definately not have happened if it weren't for you two. Thanks for putting up with me :)

Because of all this mayhem (well partly bacause of it) i am quite severely behind in my studies, so, community permitting, i now need to go on a serious study binge. I took the day off and stayed at home today, figuring getting some rest and starting on some studying was better than going to a couple of lectures i'm not gonna take anything from anyway... This being said we have the Senglea healing service coming up in 2 weeks.... which means more work... meh, if God will bring you to it, He'll bring you through it.

ps. Assassin's creed comes out today ZOMG!?!

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Silver linings

Been really busy lately, youth weekend coming up soon and it's taking up quite a lot of my time, between band rehearsals and getting organised for the backdrop (btw thanks dezzy for all your help and patience! Hopefully everything will work out well). That said, i'm really looking forward to it, i've got high hopes and higher expectations. We'll just have to wait and see...

Got loads of work piling up, looks like my christmas isn't going to be much fun at all, on top of that i've still got the 2 projects to get done... lovely. On the bright side, looks like the government has decided to raise our pay and offer us a postgrad course. This means i might not need to go abroad after all. Things are finally looking up :)

Got my cousin's halloween get-together tonight... more things on my agenda...

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Ze infected

If you've noticed the time of this blog, I should be in an anatomy lecture. I am not in an anatomy lecture because I'm at home and I'm sick. woo! It looks like a small strain of influenza, hopefully it'll blow over by tomorrow...

Spent most of my time yesterday just... well you ever get those days where you want to do a lot of work but you end up just wasting time watching stuff on tv that you don't even like or looking up stupid things on the net? Just me? Well i had one of those days. I did go to Uni in the morning though. Now, i had a sore throat, so i went out with a scarf... bear in mind that yesterday it was 23 degrees outside. When almost everyone's running around in t shirts (and a select few in shorts too) and you're with a zipped up sweater and a scarf, you get a few weird looks. It was boiling though, i mean it was colder inside the house than it was outside.

Anyways, i just wanted to share this video. Mark, this is for you.




You might notice the video section on the right. I'll see how it goes, maybe i'll keep it, maybe not. Just thought it might be a cool addition. Thoughts are welcome.

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If only the former met the latter...

I just want to point out two things I came across on the internet today...

Those of you who are hardcore 300 fans (this means you mike) should be interested in this. Yeah, I downloaded it.

While I was looking at some movie trailers I found something, get a load of this:


You can watch the actual trailer here... there is no hope...

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Here we go again

Well, well, well, here we are again. Yes I know i had said I would start blogging regularly again and yes I know I never actually got down to doing it. I've been busy (relatively)....
(kudos to mark for the picture).

Anyways, 2nd year. Right. After the surprise that I actually did pass my first year annuals and the fact that I did not study during the summer as I intended to do, for now the course is looking ok... The topics look pretty interesting (well, except for biochem obviously), but, that said, I haven't actually gotten down to studying much at all. Had a whole mix up with my physio project title, wasted a lot of time reading up articles when I decided to change my title at the last minute. I'm doing it on OCD now (obsessive-compulsive disorder), if anyone's got any handy resources, you're very welcome ;)

I'd like to add that it looks like MMSA (Malta Medical Students' Association) have linked to this page, along with some others (ally, mark and chris included). This might make this little blog a little bit more interesting (publicity, woo!!). In either case, it seems they're watching us....

Marana Tha' youth weekend coming up in a couple of weeks. I'm really looking forward to it, I think it's gonna be something really special. That said I've got quite a bit of work left to go into it, what with rehearsals and all. Meh.

Anyways, I'm off to try and decipher some neuroscience. I love this weather, been looking forward to winter for over a month now, but it's making me just want to sleep... More blogs should be coming up... hurrr

Ps. Check out the video on Simon's blog (dated today). I mean it.

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On Science

I'm pretty busy this summer, well as is usual for summer for me, so i won't be posting any blogs of particular substance. I'll drop in little updates like this just to keep the blog going...

Kudos to Ian and Matt from Three Panel Soul. I love these guys.

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Et tu, Brute?

I'm back.

Sea of Orange

Ahhhhh, exams finally OVER!! woo!!

Had anatomy practical yesterday, went pretty well, rather pleased with it. Spent most of the day at the beach at ghajn tufffieha, chilling out, watching the sun set, and then going to grab a pizza. Very plain and relaxed evening, it was all i wanted.

Mark's bbq tonight, i just want to enjoy not having to study anything for the present. Bring on the summer! :D

ps. these films look rather cool. Check out ze trailers, optimus prime is sexeh!

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Anatomy of Life

The door's open and it's cold out... brr....

Hurr studying is boooorrrring hurr. Really tired of reading this crap, i means it.

Had a pretty good night last night (thanks Mig, i know we stayed a wee bit late). Staying in just about all day to study, as i will be till wednesday.... eventful innit...

Oh and sas, i'm watching you, you 'ear me?! I'm onto you and yar sneaky ways :P

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Return of the fuzz

Mah, I blog, I blog!

I see my presence has been sorely missed. I can make excuses for the reason i have not given tidings, but i think the truth is the best option. I am damn lazy. I've had many chances to blog. I never bothered. There you have it.

So what have i been doing over the past month or so? I have largely gone into social reclusion (as i believe i mentioned in one of my last blogs), at home, trying to cram a year's worth of knowledge into my brain. Tuesday i had my physiology paper and today i had biochem. Overall i think, i think i might have actually passed! Woo! This just leaves anatomy next wednesday and the wednesday after that... after which it's sweet sweet summer..... ahhhhh i cannot begin to tell you how much i've been dreaming of that these few weeks locked inside reading books and notes for 8 hours a day.... not fun. I've resolved to go swimming on the 13th (last day). Mig finishes his then too so we're all heading to the beach...... Ahhh SUMMER!! (well for a week or so, after which i slowly start studying again but aaaaanyway...).

Ah yes, had ma birthday last month for those of ye who care to know. My last year as a teen... the thought is very scary indeed... thanks for those of you who made it a little more special hehe i didnt expect the card, especially during the film (you know who you are). And thanks Lu for a great night ;) This year i got some really cool presents for once though. Got me new really good cd's and final fantasy 12 and metal gear digital graphic novel. I know i'm geeking out here but most of you have been hearing me rant on about how much i've been wanting those. Thanks dad hehe.

What else, what else, what else.... not much really. I'm reading the Sword and the Scimitar, brilliant book, i recommend muchly. Oh and apparantly black + emo + eric from that 70's show = spiderman 3....

Last things of note, assassin's creed and team fortress 2, brilliant.

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Yeah, I'm lazy

Sarah said...
Sim ... I know I am not the most frequent blogger ever, but honestly... I think Matthew has past even me now. What do you think we should do about it... it's getting serious now.
3:24 PM
Chris said...
I say we phone him and shout at him until he blogs.
1:23 AM
Dezz said...
I say we camp outside his house till he blogs up...any better ideas?? ;)Dezz =)
3:16 AM
Allan said...
I say we catch his chest hair on fire.
1:18 PM
Chris said...
Are you mad, man? Setting Urpani's chest hair on fire could very well combust all of Malta.
4:02 PM
Marquita said...
Matthew is an MD student with NOTHING to blog right now...take my word for it... ;) Then again, if you camp outside his house and use his chest hair as camp fire fuel, I think that MIGHT just give Matt something to blog about. =/
8:41 PM
Chris said...
Psh, I'm an MD student with nothing to blog about right now either. And there's always something to blog about.Stuck inside studying? Blog about how crap the exams are!
11:34 PM
Simon said...
i say we camp outside his house, and catch his chest on fire, although there is something missing...his car...we gotta do something to his car...i say we get dezz to paint pretty flowers on it
5:32 PM
Sarah said...
I agree... let's do it!! :) OK so now the question is when and how. We have to make sure we keep it all secret so try not to do anything which will make it public like put it on the net or something... Plans people plans... and we can go ahead with it! :)
6:56 PM
Chris said...
We do it when he finishes exams!Then we demand a full recap of what he's done in the past 4 months or his beautiful car gets covered in glue and his chest hair (which we'd shaved off the day before).
7:19 PM
MD said...
Erm...plan 1...don't blog your ideas maybe ... ;)
12:16 PM
Chris said...
He doesn't read this, that's the point.

Yeah, I have lovely friends.... Will blog either later in the day or tomorrow, promise. In the meantime must study for biochem tomorrow. Wahhh!

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Emolase

Bugger and rain and lies and trickery and deceit!! DECEIT!! Hello.

Bah, this blog is largely going to be a big rant, i'm in a ranting mood. The weather today is awful, really horrible, i dont know why this vexes me so much, but it's as if it does it to spite me. Meh. Woke up at 6 30 today (yep, one of those days) to go for one lecture at 8... lasted half an hour... was it worth it? Probably not, but i figured if i stayed in i probably wouldnt do anything more productive with my time. Right now i'm staaarving, will go eat in a mo. Sposed to study all afternoon, then got a football game tonight with the guys at Valletta (sport!! *gasp and horror*!!). Should be fun, if only the weather would clear up....meh....

Today i woke up with a recurring feeling i seem to be having this week: that something is terribly wrong with the world, but you cant put your finger on it. Of course, logically, sane people come to the conclusion that the answer lies within themselves (the others get taken away before they declare war on the local supermarket). What this 'wrongness' is i do not know, however it's causing me to roam about muttering to myself like keanu reeves. Bear in mind i'm talking about something that lasts for roughly 15 minutes after i wake up.... people who have seen me in this state know that whatever i say will probably be complete bollocks and, in any case, can only be understood by north american grizzly bears... what am i on about?

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Yatta Yatta Yatta

Yes, rumours are true, i am in fact alive. I won't make excuses, i've had a million chances to update. Just haven't been bothered. That's commitment for ya hehe.

Yeah well, as usual, i don't have much to say. I've got ballu tonight and to tell the honest truth, i am not looking forward to it, at all really. No specific thing that's making me not like it, i'm just not in the mood. Meh, we'll probably nip off and go explore Zurrieq after a couple of hours anyway. That might be kinda cool :) Actually i'm in the mood for Mdina....

Um, me and Lu (my ex-ex-girlfriend) are back together after a 2 month break, just for those who didnt know.... yeah... :D

What else what else what else.... 300!! OMGHAXROFLLOL!!111!!one!!KOPTER!1! I cannot contrive words to describe the beauty. It's like pure funnelled man-joy, only in a complete hetersexual context. But really, it was exactly what i wanted it to be, brilliant!

Ah yes, academic update hehe. Good News: I am pretty much, at this point in time, convinced i want to pursue this medical career (after going back and forth in my mind for the past few months). Actually i started studying a little seriously (emphasis on 'little') during these holidays and i am actually interested in my subject matter again, i'm tempted to say i am motivated *gasp*! Bad News: I have 6 weeks to learn roughly 3/4's of my syllabus in order to hopefully pass my exams. As you might imagine, this is not nice, so people if i happen to go into social reclusion for a while, just bear with me please, i dont want to have to resit in summer. Thankee-sai.

Oh, and i love these guys.

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